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Post by streetlights on Jan 5, 2005 8:43:27 GMT 10
He is back home now. His parents came and got him from his mates house to tell him that his cat was run over. I told him I needed just a bit of a break to sort things out and he seems fine with it. Though I don't think he gets the meaning of break because he asked if I could pick him up from work to go do something later this week.
Even though I'm telling him it is just a break. I feel so relieved now. I actually woke up and danced around the house this morning. ( Mind you, i'd seen Chicago last night)
Thanks for the advice.
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Post by timbaxterml on Jan 20, 2005 21:31:50 GMT 10
On the weekend, I burned again for the first time since early feb.
Last night I (again) had to reject a friend who's been asking me out for months. I feel really fucking guilty despite the fact that I've been really careful to do nothing wrong by her. I get the feeling that the friendship is pretty much over.
Tomorrow morning, I'm running the storeroom at work for the first time and I'm not exactly sure that I know what I'm doing.
Ever since I had a massive argument with my best friend in november, things have been icy and I'm fairly sure she's done with me. I don't know what to do to fix it.
My ex is in Vietnam and I miss her again, even though I promised myself that the last time we broke up would definitely be the last time.
The last four girls I have developed crushes on have indictated that they are either not interested or taken.
I have my first psych appointmet in six months on the 27th and I'm shitting myself.
My new meds are barely working, but I'm too nervous to visit my GP. I think she'll take me off them and then I'll have to go a few weeks without so I can clean up. I'm scared of the person I become when I'm taking nothing.
I got some valium from my GP so I could try to quit smoking. I attempted, then failed. I've now finished off the rest of the bottle on panic attacks. I don't know how to ask her for more without feeling like a drug addict.
I don't trust myself anymore. I've been doing the idealisation thing and I'm scared of how happy the daydreams make me.
I have my first decent sized pay-cheque since october coming this tuesday, but nearly every cent is already spent on my oodles of debt.
Another friend visited me at work today and I couldn't come up with anything to say to her.
My wrist hurts from the lifting at work, but I have to work through it because I'm on casual rates and I really need the money.
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[edit: I feel guilty for ranting here, but I don't have anywhere else to rant these days.]
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Post by singingcirclesaway on Jan 20, 2005 22:51:21 GMT 10
I can't offer anything useful but to say you're welcome to vent on here Tim. I know I hardly talk to you anymore, but I'm concerned. I know it sounds cliche, but if I can do anything remotely useful, let me know.
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Post by timbaxterml on Jan 21, 2005 17:59:40 GMT 10
I can't offer anything useful but to say you're welcome to vent on here Tim. I know I hardly talk to you anymore, but I'm concerned. I know it sounds cliche, but if I can do anything remotely useful, let me know. thanks, mel. it helps. honestly I think I'm getting a bit beyond the help thing these days. |
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Post by Hecate on Jan 22, 2005 17:53:22 GMT 10
Tomorrow morning, I'm running the storeroom at work for the first time and I'm not exactly sure that I know what I'm doing. How did running the storeroom at work by yourself go? |
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